Can religion forgive me...?

I am 17 years old. When i was little my mother sent me to a private christian school. My mind was weak so i was easily miss led so if the teacher told me god was real then i knew he was real. It wasn't until high school when i met this man (im not going to say his name) we shared thoughts and philosophy's and were best friends and he was my only friend. By the time i was 16 I stopped my beliefs in god and became an agnostic because I knew no one could prove if a god (or anything else for that matter) could be proven real or not. But I didn't want to just die and rot in the ground. One day me and my friend had our last discussion and he told me he believed in god not the Christan god just our god, everyones god, because there can only be one god...maybe... But this is not my point my point is now that i have asked questions i cant not believe in anything no more but when i do die and there is that god ,that leader, the soul if it is the christain god, or any other god do you think that god will forgive me? And until that day comes i will live my life honest and truthfully. and sorry if my spelling is bad if that even matters to you.