Any clue how far can i get?

i`m schizophrenic. official diagnose is F20.2 or 1. at first it was the first one in the mental health centre (the paranoid one), because i told my doc that all this thing almost feels like a sound in my head. She understood, that i`m hearing voices. But i havent heard any voice or havent seen anything unreal, atleast i think so. Second doc diagnosed me with the disorganised type of illness -20.2 i guess, cant remember which is which. So it basically feels like i have been living without myself like for 2 - 3 years or even more. it feels something is just not right constantly. it makes me to sweat, my heartbeat is enermously fast to even some pain at region of my heart. i don`t feel myself thinking and i`m not aware fully. Everything just is. there is no life in me. thats the way it feels. i don`t move forward freely, i just somehow am. Terrible ****, for real. I`m the strong one, i guess, cause i find no big point now move to someone and start to tell how i feel, life has to be changed and thats all. So yeah, cryed a little bit there little higher. So i have been on 100mg of quetiapinium a day from this august. Like a month ago this disturbance started to lessen and basically i feel more free and can basically hold a job now. 6 days for 12 hours a day. not a very big problem actually. Of course i have to play an idiot in work, because when says me something, i cant get what i am told with the first time. So basically like a month ago everything just became like a little bit slower around me so i can again use some objects, pc n stuff. situation is not so crazy inside of me. And it basically gets better with every day by every pill now. i guess it actually is some disorganisation - as it lessens, the more organization there is :). and the lower it gets, the more comfortable u feel, just like an unclean room. So doc said that by these pills the illness will be if not fully stopped, then maximaly minimised. Not english, just trying to use words that pop up. hope u get the idea. So i would like to hear your thoughts. Can i get to a point where i basically i dont feel this thing anymore and finally start to move like myself ? or will it always be here at some feeling-level ? This thing is really, really hard, so i simply need some more thoughts. it bothers me every moment for last 3 years. 4 years before that it felt like a depression btw. so thats it. please dont cheer me up, hate it. thanks for paying attention